I want Georgetown

This weekend I did a lot of reflection on what I want. And it surprised me that I really really want Georgetown. I was all talk early on about the big name schools. Not that Georgetown isn't a big name but it's not the typical name associated with a top 10 b-school. Anyway, I just kept thinking about the opportunities I would have living in D.C. to work in policy related non-profits. Plus every Georgetown student and alumni I spoke with while there was so impressive. And I think since the MBA program at Georgetown is relatively new, it'd be nice to be able to take part in shaping the program as it grows and matures. Plus the students I spoke to at Georgetown spoke so highly of the academics there. And I want more than just a networking group in b-school. I really really want to learn the fundamentals of managing a non-profit. I have a lot to learn and I want to have a high quality education in an environment that I feel comfortable as well as in an environment that will provide me with a lot of opportunities. So now I continue to wait...and hope.

As I wait for word on my fate I think it's nearly impossible to stop my mind from going down all possible "What if..." roads. Most frightening of which is the "What if I don't get in to Georgetown or any other school". What the heck am I going to do with myself? I know in the end something will workout. I always manage to make things work. But I don't want to have to make something work. I want to move out of the area, I want to be a student again, and I want change. Major change. I want this new career. Right now I still feel like an engineer trying to pass as a public affairs person. I want to be in this job, I feel like I'm pretending right now because I don't feel like I am contributing as much as I could be. Please just let me get in to school...I don't want to think about all the "What if..." options anymore!

OK I think this gloomy Monday morning is making my head go a little wacky. Maybe I should have slept in a little longer this morning...

TGIF! (non-MBA)

The most exciting part of my day today was looking on the clear admit blog and finally seeing my blog mentioned! I have felt so neglected by those folks at clear admit! I've been doing the MBA blog thing for almost a year now and FINALLY they decide to mention me in the FFF post. Really, it's the little things in life that make me so happy ;-)

In other good news my job just got extended until June. This is such a relief for me! Technically it was supposed to end next Friday. I was having such issues trying to decide what to do since it would be hard for me to accept another job elsewhere knowing I'd (hopefully) be leaving in the fall to start b-school. June is perfect timing too. By then I'll know if/and where I'll be going to school so that I can spend the following two months doing a little traveling. Plus I can get my unit rented out and workout all the kinks with a new tenant while living temporarily with mommy ;-) And by then my two other units leases will be up so I can extend them for another two years or find new tenants while I'm gone so I won't have to worry about it while I'm away.

Or if the school thing doesn't work out at least I'll know by the end of March and I'll have time to make a concerted effort to find that ideal permanent job, or maybe even discuss taking on the position here permanently if that's possible. So many options...but at least now I know I'll be able to pay my mortgage for the next few months ;-) Life is good and it's Friday! Woohoo!

Happy Hallmark Day!

I am not a fan of Valentine's Day, with or without a significant other I think it's...for lack of a better word...LAME! But I am not the most romantic person, nor am I the most emotionally available person so any holiday that I am required to tell people how I "feel" or buy some mushy card saying the "L" word is a nightmare for me. That being said, I have totally indulged in the sweets that come along with the lame holiday. My theory is if I eat the enormous chocolate chip cookie in the break room piecemeal...then it won't count as an enormous cookie! That's my theory and I'm sticking to it!

No word from any schools yet. I'm done submitting though and I am considering sitting for the GMAT again next week for good measure. Since I cancelled my scores on my last exam I thought I could use the boost from my god awful scores from my original exam that I took unprepared a while ago. I think Michigan and Georgetown wills till consider the scores if I update them within the next two weeks. UCLA, I'm not so sure about...they claim you have to take the exam prior to Jan. 31st. Anyway, Saturday I'm going too do a quick practice exam, if I do well enough, significantly higher than my current pathetic scores I'm just gonna spend the $250 and be done with it. I don't expect to hear much from the schools until decisions come down since I already voluntarily interviewed with UCLA and Georgetown months ago. UMich I don't think will consider me unless I boost that GMAT score...whatever.


I am so over this B-school thing right now. I am sick of the uncertainty in my life. I just want to know already and be done. Then I can spend the next few months playing and roaming around Central America or something of the sort...

But for now, I spent last weekend in the central coast wine country, visited Hearst Castle, and got to see the elephant seals nursing their babies on the beach nearby...they were adorable! Did some wine tasting too. It was nice to be away and not have an application hanging over my head for once! This weekend I'm going to the SAP Open finals...hoping the good players make it to the finals! Life is starting to seem a little more normal...now if I could get out of my post-marathon slump and get started on my new training program, life would be really good!

Anyway, to those people that enjoy the commercial holiday, Happy Valentine's Day! Hope your b-school dreams come true!